@NoOneNeedsToKnow
You say you feel guilty for thinking some of the things you think, but you aren’t responsible for your thoughts, no one can choose their thoughts, they just appear in consciousness. I guess I could have some small talk with you via PM.
@Background Pony #BE72
Thanks for your kind words. Have been on this forum by chance today and read your response. Often words like yours don’t make a difference. But sometimes they do. :) Sometimes they stay in the mind permanently. For me the line “I care.” is now in my mind. It makes a difference! I’d like to have some small talk with you via PM - only if it’s okay for you of course. C u.
@ArterialBlack716
Actually, I lost my very best friend because of my suicidal thoughts: he tried to help me and I refused because my thoughts narrowed down way to much to be able to recognize my situation. I enjoyed watching mlp together with him but I feel guilty because I cannot continue to watch it without associating any porn. Also, somehow its childish magic is gone. I do hope I can someday restore this by NoFap.
But after I fell into depression and had to quit studying because of a lack of concentration it is hard to resist the only natural urge without proper occupation.
And no - I dont believe in God but one attempt of suicide made my mind hit the borders of perception and although I even cannot proofe it to myself: since then I am 100% sure that something exists beyond space, beyond time, boyond imagination - some unity, that I could only name God to express how fundamental it felt.
So ArterialBlack716, your words help me, right now, THANKS!
@ArterialBlack716
I actually have severe struggle to continue to live a happy life because I got addicted to the strong relief of stress during and after orgasm. Soon I tried to gain more stress because of that routine. I gained pleasure from asphyxiation and always listened to the same music while I stopped breathing for 3min… sometimes till unconciousness. I overmodulated my dopamine system and now I have been pretty close to suicide because my body couldn’t take it anymore.
Porn certainly is not the only reason behind my story, but be aware of its less healthy effects (in my case).
definitely. that’s exactly the point i was trying to get across in my first comment - it’s not “harmless” like many people claim. i’m really sorry you’ve been dealing with this. have you considered getting any help for it? (like, professional therapy? or at the very least, checking out that NoFap website?)
also, i don’t know if you believe in God or not, but i will pray for you as you work through these struggles.
@ArterialBlack716
I actually have severe struggle to continue to live a happy life because I got addicted to the strong relief of stress during and after orgasm. Soon I tried to gain more stress because of that routine. I gained pleasure from asphyxiation and always listened to the same music while I stopped breathing for 3min… sometimes till unconciousness. I overmodulated my dopamine system and now I have been pretty close to suicide because my body couldn’t take it anymore.
Porn certainly is not the only reason behind my story, but be aware of its less healthy effects (in my case).
“excessive porn consumption is having actual psychological effects on people and affecting their sexual health, i’d better encourage it in the comments instead of encouraging people to get the help they actually need”
There is no option to PM a Background Pony, just PM me.
I’m the sane guy you replied to, but my BP number has changed, for some reason.
You say you feel guilty for thinking some of the things you think, but you aren’t responsible for your thoughts, no one can choose their thoughts, they just appear in consciousness. I guess I could have some small talk with you via PM.
Thanks for your kind words. Have been on this forum by chance today and read your response. Often words like yours don’t make a difference. But sometimes they do. :) Sometimes they stay in the mind permanently. For me the line “I care.” is now in my mind. It makes a difference! I’d like to have some small talk with you via PM - only if it’s okay for you of course. C u.
I hope you haven’t killed yourself, people care about you, I care.
Actually, I lost my very best friend because of my suicidal thoughts: he tried to help me and I refused because my thoughts narrowed down way to much to be able to recognize my situation. I enjoyed watching mlp together with him but I feel guilty because I cannot continue to watch it without associating any porn. Also, somehow its childish magic is gone. I do hope I can someday restore this by NoFap.
But after I fell into depression and had to quit studying because of a lack of concentration it is hard to resist the only natural urge without proper occupation.
And no - I dont believe in God but one attempt of suicide made my mind hit the borders of perception and although I even cannot proofe it to myself: since then I am 100% sure that something exists beyond space, beyond time, boyond imagination - some unity, that I could only name God to express how fundamental it felt.
So ArterialBlack716, your words help me, right now, THANKS!
definitely. that’s exactly the point i was trying to get across in my first comment - it’s not “harmless” like many people claim. i’m really sorry you’ve been dealing with this. have you considered getting any help for it? (like, professional therapy? or at the very least, checking out that NoFap website?)
also, i don’t know if you believe in God or not, but i will pray for you as you work through these struggles.
I actually have severe struggle to continue to live a happy life because I got addicted to the strong relief of stress during and after orgasm. Soon I tried to gain more stress because of that routine. I gained pleasure from asphyxiation and always listened to the same music while I stopped breathing for 3min… sometimes till unconciousness. I overmodulated my dopamine system and now I have been pretty close to suicide because my body couldn’t take it anymore.
Porn certainly is not the only reason behind my story, but be aware of its less healthy effects (in my case).
Also Fimfiction.
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You have my sympathy, BP.